Episode 7: Why've You Brought That?
There's a lot more of the transcribed diary in this section than I originally intended, but I think it may help to understand Anne's quite ambivalent attitute to Mariana at this point - similar, I think, to how she talks about Ann in the diary entries relating to episode 6.
GJ time is still autumn 1832, but as we know that Ann actually went to Scotland on February 18 1833, in real time we're approaching the end of winter 1833.
GJ day 47 starts with new groom Thomas Beech turning up at Shibden: in fact Anne was to meet him in York when she sets off, having already asked Mariana to sort out his new clothes:
"Should be much obliged to get him an undress suit Oxford-mixture jacket & waistcoat & plush breeches & plain yellow buttons which would do till get to London... would pay her for the livery & things for Leamington when we meet" (26-Dec-1832).
In the next scene Thomas Sowden comes to Fenny Royd to ask Mr Washington for his daughter's hand - although in real life "Thomas Sowden" didn't exist and the real
Susannah Washington was only eight or nine in 1833.
Back at Shibden Marian's back from Halifax in a terrible state, having been humiliated by Christopher Rawson at the bank. On March 5 Marian really did have a bit of a run in with Mr Rawson, but it was about a £2,000 credit note Anne had secured to pay for her travels, not a loan to sink her pit. The conversation sounds familiar:
" Home at 10 ¼ - about an hour talking to Marian - she told me Mr Rawson had told her that when I wanted the letter of credit I had offered to send him the Shibden papers as security & she did not know whether they were there or not - I said I had never offered any such thing... then got my business letter book & read her the copy of the 2 letters (1 to Mr Briggs 1 to Mr Rawson) I had written on the subject - Marian distressed[?] at the unfairness of Mr R's conduct - thought it was a fetch to get to know how Shibden was left... she owned the thought that if anything happened to his wife he would be very glad to take her, Marian, if by doing so he could get Shibden" (26-Dec-1832).
During the GJ conversation Marian relates that Mr Rawson
"...made a lewd comment. About Mr. Abbott. Who - apparently - is now engaged to Miss Greenwood of Field House in Sowerby" - Field House is a gorgeous Georgian building, but at the time seems to have been inhabited by the Stansfeld (or Stansfield) family, so perhaps a Miss Greenwood didn't live there. We know that John Abbott never married.
On GJ day 48 Anne is in York with her carriage having picked it up from the Norcliffes at
Langton. As she arrives at Minster Court to visit Dr Belcombe she tells Beech to
"Let the postilion bait his horses..." - the "postilion" is clearly driving the carriage, not riding one of the horses...
"A postilion or postillion guides a horse-drawn coach or post chaise mounted on the horse or one of a pair of horses. By contrast, a coachman controls the horses from the vehicle itself" (
Wikipedia). So he's really a coachman, not a postilion, but Sally Wainwright is using Anne's own language - she herself refers the person driving various carriages as the "postilion".
There's another mistake in the subtitles on day 49, when Anne's with Mr Parker asking for a loan: Anne clearly says
"...fifteen hundred pounds to get this thing sunk in a year... - the subtitles read "fifteen hundred pounds to get this thing
sunken here".
On April 22 Anne invites Christopher Rawson to Shibden to have it out with him about his treatment of Marian back in March:
"At 11 ½ - Mr Rawson, & staid an hour - began with the letter of credit - mentioned his mention of the thing to my sister how much she had been uneasy & alarmed about it wondering about the Shibden papers being offered as sucurity & how much I had been annoyed on hearing of this - He said he had only joked about whether I was going to be married - all joke & 'she was a great thickhead, he did not think she could have been such a thickhead' - & he would tell her about it - I quietly said it was not always easy to calculate people's wit or the contrary but it was always better not to joke on such subjects - I mentioned what I thought proper & no one liked to hear of their affairs being mentioned by their banker" (22-Apr-1833).
This is the basis of the GJ scene
"She eats dogs, this one" where Anne gets Mr Rawson drunk and after berating him for calling Marian a "thickhead" challenges him over the carriage accident, the beating & the coal theft... Disappointingly, I think that Anne loses the argument - and Christopher Rawson never gets his come-uppance on any count. Maybe in series 2?
To York
Anne finally leaves for York on Sunday June 16, without any fuss:
"My aunt & I read the morning prayers (without the liturgy or a sermon) in 25 minutes & soon after took my leave merely saying good morning - not contradicting the thought of my being back for a little while before winter... off at 12" (16-Jun-1833).
She catches the mail coach at the Stump Cross Inn and arrives at the Black Swan in York at 5:45, having travelled though Leeds and Wetherby. The same day she tracks down Thomas Beech, the new groom, and her new maid, Eugenie Pierre -
"dressing & undressing under Eugenie's hands".
In York visits
Eliza Raine, finding her
"gown made strait waistcoat wise" and
"cross & riotous". She also meets Dr Belcombe, the Duffins and Harriet Milne, Mariana's married sister (with whom she had had an affair in 1825):
"Latterly rather flirting but not much. Said the longer Charles lived the better. Gave her the carbuncle ring while in the fly - obscurely or roundaboutly explained that that stone was the emblem of long and deep feeling, alias passion... Kissed her rather lovingly but not much - might go as far as I liked but too cautious nowadays" (17-Jun-1833).
To Leamington
The next day Anne collects her carriage and after visiting her lawyer to alter her will leaves York for Leamington, giving Harriet a lift to a village just outside York:
"Flirting moderately with Mrs Milne. She thought me cool enough about Mariana but when I said she had still great influence over [me?], she, Mrs M, bade me not talk of her, hoped I should always feel towards her (Mrs M) as I did at present - wished she could write to me but I said I was too uncertain where to be found... Kissed two or three times - rather affect[ed?]. Set down Mrs Milne at the far end of Dringhouses at 2" (18-Jun-1833).
Travelling via Aberford, Wakefield and Barnsley, Anne's carriage arrives at the Tontine
Inn, Sheffield at 9:20, having stopped at the White Swan in Aberford -
"brought very good thin biscuits to the carriage door" - about 60 miles in seven hours. The party leaves the Tontine
"comfortable enough" at 7:55 the next morning, going through Edensor, changing horses at Matlock, then via Belper, Derby and Burton-upon-Trent to Lichfield where the horses were changed again at the
Swan. After leaving Lichfield at about 3,
"5 miles from Coleshill near hind wheel began to creak", and by the time Coleshill was reached the wheel was
"all but absolutely on fire". After a half-hour delay Anne sets off and arrives at Claremont
House, Leamington at 9:55 where Mariana is waiting:
"No appearance of much love on either side... had a very chastened kiss or two. I don't believe we either of us care much - I have luckily got over even all feeling of mortification or irritation. I wonder what she will say on getting all her letters back? Well, I care not much, if at all". On going to bed she
"took 2 large teaspoons of epsom salts" then
"up at three and a half with the salts - violent working ran away from me like water, but no sort of pain or uncomfortableness" (19/20-Jun-1833).
In GJ it's still autumn 1832 when Anne arrives at Claremont House at 10:30 in the morning of day 51. Charles had just heard the news of his nephew's death at the bone
mill: "The arm was severed. At the shoulder. He must have bled to death. That or the shock". William
Lawton really was killed in such an accident - in May 1833 - as related in James Caldwell's diary, May 10 1833:
"Called at Lawton Hall in consequence of late ... in the Family for Mr. Wm. Lawton eldest son of the late John Lawton having died on the ... instant in consequence of having become entangled in the machinery of a Bone Mill at Kingsley, by which his arm was torn off & he was otherwise so much injured as to occasion his death" (jjhc.info/caldwelljames1829-1833). Anne stays in Leamington until the 2nd of July.
Despite her impassive diary entry of the previous day, Anne still wants Mariana to be jealous and is upset that she's not:
"While out walking had told Mariana of my fancy for Mrs Milne. From the manner in which Mariana took it could not think she cared much - I was really affected - in tears after dinner and tonight almost so when she said 'don't be pathetic or you will make me so too.'". The same coded entry continues:
"...we both talked of our own (wills) - Mariana has left me money but would not say how much. If I am in England her writing box is to be sent to me if not to her mother. Said Mariana's name not mentioned in the will I had made but the legacies were to be added by and by. Said I had told Steph and Charlotte Norcliffe what passed last May - all off between us - Mariana had before said on my hinting at this that I was always ablab - I think she would have been better pleased if I had not named it at all" (20-Jun-1833).
Things are different the next morning, but Anne's only interested in the sex:
"Mariana came ten minutes before seven and staid till I got up. Had a very tolerable kiss and much talk". In the evening she & Mariana had
"dinner at 6 - on coming into the drawing room little Mariana played to us while Mariana sat on my knee (sufficiently out of sight of the child) and I grubbled her well - tea at 9 - upstairs soon after 10 - undressed got into bed and had Mariana with me half hour till eleven and twenty minutes and grubbled as before, she quite wet and nothing loth. She hinted today she might be with me after all but I took no notice. It is off and so be it. I can amuse without entangling myself" (21-Jun-1833).
Two days later, still in Leamington, Anne spills the beans about Ann:
"Told Mariana all about my offer to Miss Walker; she said how odd I was and seemed a little confounded at finding how nearly she had lost me and as if she could not quite well bear the thought of it - tea at 9 - upstairs at 10 - talk then in bed and had a tolerable kiss and a grand grubble afterwards and M- left me at 11:20" (23-Jun-1833).
The next day after a dinner party (a large group including Charles Lawton) Anne gives her verdict:
"All went off as well as might be expected but how the want of style struck me!... How unlike a stylish party - how far Mariana is behind Vere in manners. Mariana can do without me so can I without her. I shall say nothing to bring matters on again" (24-Jun-1833).
"Mariana seems hardly reconciled to lose me and not at all certain of being able to recall me. She hoped I should come to her the first thing on my return to England and wanted me to promise - I did not exactly do this but asked when she had known me not do what she wished and she seemed satisfied. She asked when I should return and not thinking it advisable to glance at any long absence. I merely said it would depend on circumstances but my aunt expected me in November. Speaking of Mrs Milne said I had no intention of having her, did not respect her merely amused myself, played her own game back again, and merely said what I had done to Mariana (asked her advice whether to have Mrs M or not) to hear what she would say - M- came & sat in my room - read to her from page 46 to 176 vol.1.Inglis's Tyrol - dinner at 6 - grubbled her well. Tea at 9 ¼ - came upstairs at 10 - very fine day - F65° at 12 ½ tonight till which hour I had been asleep in my chair for nearly 2 hours having had rather more wine after dinner than I quite liked - not however that it had actually got into my head" (25-Jun-1833).
The next morning Anne
"had Mariana from seven and ten to eight and tw[e]nty minutes, said I was not good for much after the grand grubbling yesterday after dinner but she gradually led me into exciting talk and tho' I would not go near her myself put her on my left thigh and gave her a good grubble".
And then later is she leading Mariana on?
"She said she was not happy - a relief to have told me. I smiled and said it was a good sign and she would be happier by and by. She said all I did was right - nobody so likely to make anyone happy as I was. She was uneasy both about me and W.Crewe. I joked and asked her tonight if she liked me nearly as well as him? 'Yes'. If quite as well? 'Yes'. Bade her cheer up that at any rate she had only two sources of trouble and I would [reduce] them to one. On her telling me this morning that she really cared for me I said I should now try her regard before believing it. Perhaps she is sorry for what she has done for I give no hint at bringing things on again, nor do I feel much inclined - let her take W.Crewe. I very nicely advised her this morning to make her brother her executor and if she would put her money in the French funds I would pay her all I have of hers (onehundred and eighty?) at Christmas. I shall then have done with her handsomely as to money matters" (26-Jun-1833).
"Jumped to let in Mariana who came and sat talking a few minutes. Had had a bad night from indigestion pain. Dreampt she saw W.Crewe in a pond with his head in the mud, his heels sticking up and somebody had put his hat on them - spirited her up - she said it was my behaving so well that vexed her. She had a letter from him this morning, very proper one, but plain what he feels at heart tho' never the smallest impropriety - sealed with a dog couchant: motto [of] fidelity. I have [more] than once said I doubted if he would make her quite happy and on my saying it would be a blessing if Charles lived a while. She said yes, she thought it would. I now joke her about her twin troubles but said that one perhaps might not be in her way... M- came to me at 2 to go out, but it rained so we sat talking till 4 - about Willoughby Crewe and myself. It seems she did not know till now how much she cr[i]ed for me and in fact all her unhappiness is that which she gives up - she must do wrong to one of us. Convinced her I had not been the one to change. It was evident she would gladly have all on again between us but said she did not think I should ever like her so well again. I answered that I would not say that but her regard for me would now require some proving and when she pressed me rather hard I said I did not believe she knew her own mind and that I should think it not right to take any advantage of her feeling at this moment if she remained the same a year hence it would be another thing best to try the effect of absence thus I got off fastening myself again and she must make what she can of it taking care not to get a fall between the two stools. She owns Willoughby Crewe would be no good match for her and that as long as William Lawton lived she thought only of him. In fact she hoped he would marry little Mariana and then she would not have wanted either WC or me. I hoped I had not breathed a word that was unkind" (27-Jun-1833).
The GJ discussions we see in the carriage and the Angel Inn in Oxford accurately represent Anne's diary entries while she's still in Leamington, for example:
"Mariana entered on the subject of our break-off altogether excusing herself, not done from caprice but from a fear of our not suiting. She saw my aunt, thought she had behaved ill. 'Yes', said I, "but my aunt only echo[e]s my own sentiments.' Mariana said both my aunt and Charlotte Norcliffe had only heard my story - begged her to tell her own to Char[lotte]. Mariana enlarged on all she used to suffer at the oddity of my appearance - my being so like a man - then entered into and defended the Blackstone Edge business. It was overhearing one of the post boys say I was a man in petticoats that set her wrong. I don't remember ever hearing this before. I said not much but how astounded I had been to find myself second to William Lawton. [I]t is now quite evident how much she wants to bring all on again but tho' I am very kind I always avoid this. I went down to tea then took M- a cup up into the drawing room & sat by her till we went to our room at 11:10 - lastly grubbled her well and she seemed as if she would sleep all the better for it. She owned the other day that if William had not died she should not have cared so much to get me back. She has not got me yet" (28-Jun-1833).
The next few days' diary entries seem to concentrate on Anne's wish not to be ensnared by Mariana:
"Had Mariana from six and twenty minutes to ten and a half - two good grubblings at last, then lay ten minutes alone and incurred a gentle cross - fine & F65° at 10 a.m. - breakfast at 11 ¾ - sat talking & looking into Landscape annual of 1831 till went out at 4... home at 6 - dinner at 6:10 - Little Maraiana played to us as usual in the drawing room... coffee at 8 - tea at 9 ½ - came upstairs at 11 ¾ and wished goodnight. Mariana is evidently anxious to know whether I will take her back or not but I avoid saying yes, tho' I do not say no. She says she likes Mr Crewe next after me and if I won't take her she shall not hesitate to take him. I shall leave it to its fate and not bind myself to her in a hurry - let me look about me a little. She said she would not be control[l]ed - I must promise. Said I would make no conditions. The person who had not confidence enough to trust me was not fit for me, on which she kissed me and said I was right and said she was very fond of me, asked me if I loved her - I answered yes, but tho' she has often called me 'my own,' I have never once done the same to her" (29-Jun-1833).
"The whole story of Willoughby Crewe: she likes me best - told her she had got rather into a scrape - that it was now a point of honour with me not to interfere with him - I should be out of the way and should say nothing till I saw she was at liberty. In fact she cannot get me to commit myself - dinner at 5 - She came to my room sat on my knee - long and grand grubbling and then again as she lay on my bed and I stood over her till tho' she seemed in ecstasies she was rather overcome" (30-Jun-1833).
"Had Mariana from ten minutes before five to getting up - slept and talked - lastly no grubbling. She seems determined to get me back again but tho' I say nothing particularly against it yet I say nothing for it or that can at all commit me... She seems to count upon getting me back again to her but I say nothing to commit myself but joke her about Willoughby C." (1-Jul-1833).
To Oxford
"Had Mariana quietly in bed three quarters hour till my getting up... Just wished Miss Bowes goodbye & off from Leamington at 3:25..." Travelling via Gaydon, Warmington and Banbury, Anne and Mariana
"changed horses at the Red Lion..." then via
"Teddington" and North Aston, where the horses were changed
again, and finally
"at the Angel Inn Oxford at 9 - Oxford probably the most picturesque beautiful town I have ever seen - strolled out for ½ hour - then tea & came upstairs at 10 ¾ - M- sat by me knitting while I wrote the above of today... ½ hour remaking our bed - making 2 into 1 - so scanty were the bed clothes & so bad the bedding there would have been no chance of sleep" (2-Jul-1833).
On GJ day 52 we see Mariana knitting at the Angel but, as mentioned above, the dialogue set there had already happened in Leamington. After one night in Oxford, Anne and Mariana set off for London.
To London
"Quiet last night on account of Mariana's cousin which however had stopped during the day. Gave her a nice little kiss by grubbling and being near her without harm to myself about half hour before getting up... Off at 1:50 from the Angel Inn Oxford - "Thetford" at 3:20 - nice little town - Swan Inn there large, rose-covered, very nice-looking Inn to spend a few days at - pass through the town & through deepish cut through the hill & change horses at the Royal Oak." Proceeding though West Wycombe and Chipping Wycombe -
"commonly called High Wycombe" - then via Beaconsfield and Uxbridge, where they stopped at the Crown Inn so Anne could
"see the room in which Charles 1 held a treaty with his parliament 1643-4, the document & signatures framed & hanging over the chimney piece" After leaving Uxbridge at 7:35 the party
"alighted at Hawkin's 26 Dover Street London at 9:35 - tea & ham & eggs" (3-Jul-1833).
In London Anne immediately starts on her whirl of social engagements, meeting Lady
Stuart, Lady Duff-Gordon and Miss Tate,
"an elderly maiden Lady very plain, niether much mannerism, nor haut ton, but very musical", at one point leaving poor Mariana sitting in the carriage while she
"sat 20 minutes with Lady Duff Gordon 34 Hertford Street". She heard from Vere, now Lady Vere Cameron, who
"was safe in bed - a girl born at 3 yesterday morning".
Later she can't leave the "William Lawton" subject alone:
"Long talk why Mariana had put me second to William and would not have thought of me as she does now again if he had lived. She thought she should not suit me I should be glad to get rid of her and she must seek other interests. William was to have lived with her and saved and paid off the debt of eight thousand pounds on the estate. She never thought I should feel the thing as I had done - my cousin came on gently this morning" (4-Jul-1833).
The next day (GJ day 53) is the day Anne goes out to dinner at Lady Stuart's leaving Mariana behind:
"Poor Mariana on hearing I was going to dine out burst into tears - she had been counting the minutes for me and this unexpected disappointment made her quite nervous she felt alone and bitterly repented having come with me - I was courted, she neglected and unknown, and our now unsuitableness seemed to strike her forcibly. She little thought that I too had my hidden mortification (I always fancying I have done some gaucherie or that people see my stiffness and unfitness for the world etc. etc.) I said what I could and dressed determined to return early" (5-Jul-1833).
On the sixth Mariana's still upset, and there's news from York
"Grubbled a little last night - Mariana's eyes swelled up this morning with her crying of yesterday - Letter directed to me by Mrs Milne, but turned out letter from Mrs Belcombe finished by Mrs M- to Mariana giving an account of Anne B-'s severe illness but out of danger when the letter came off". Perhaps out of contrition Anne spends the whole day with Mariana: shopping for that coffee pot and staying at home talking.
"Convinced Mariana I had more common sense than she thought and valued my own happiness above all other things - could give up the world any day, few people valued it less than I did. But as to Mariana, said she had shaken my confidence and it would now require some effort on her part to renew it - but as Milton had said we forgave soonest those we had love[d] longest - however I did not make any promises. Anne later declines
"on M-'s account" an invitation to dine with Lady Stuart and Lady de Rothsay at Grosvener Place; she and Mariana
"dined at home at 7... tea at 10... comfortable cozy evening - came to our room at 11 ½ - sat up reading to M-... said I still felt as much as ever how insipid the pleasures of the world were compared with those of literature and with these and anyone to make me happy I should want no more" (6-Jul-1833).
The next day - still day 53 in GJ - after
"a little grubble last night" Anne goes to see Vere while
"M- sat in the carriage while I called & saw V- & the child - a nice little thing - sat 8 minutes with V- kissed her hand several times and behaved very kindly tho' quite properly. Mariana thinks I care more about V than anybody next to herself" (7-Jul-1833).
The first line of the diary entry for Tuesday July 9 reads
"Not noted but I think a grubble or a kiss last night or this morning" which I take to mean that Anne really did take notes immediately after sex - just as we see in GJ. That evening Anne's out to a high-society dinner again, getting back late:
"home at 12 ¼... found M- waiting for me - Mr Lawton had arrived - had been here, and was at Fenton's hotel in St James's Street! - but M- would not leave me till Thursday when it had been finalised tonight for me to go to Richmond Park for a couple of nights" (9-Jul-1833).
Unusually the next day's entry starts in exactly the same way as Tuesday's - probably because Anne is writing the entry from notes or even memory. After Mariana and Anne have their portraits
"done in crayons for 2 guineas each... Mr Lawton & Mr Sweatenham called at 3 & sat some time with M- shouting and bawling - I was ashamed of them and thought myself lucky to be engaged and out of the way" (10-Jul-1833).
"This mark of a kiss is noted - I think it was in the morning (from after the first five lines of Wednesday the third instant to here written out at Chantilly on the twenty-fi[r]st instant). At any [rate?] Mariana and I had our parting kiss this m[orning] or last night... M- & I out in the carriage at 1... then back again to 57 Wimpole Street & 20 minutes with V[ere] - then up & down to shops & home at 4:55 - sat quietly talking to M - took my leave & sent her home to Fenton's in the carriage... Mariana has evidently wanted to see if she could get me back I have not committed myself" - off in my own carriage, the faster[?], from Dover Street at 6:25 & at Lady Stuart's Richmond Park at 7:38"
where she spent the night -
"much colder here than in London - slept in V-'s room" (11-Jul-1833).
On the 13th Mariana is snubbed again when Anne visits the National Gallery with a party including Lady Stuart & Lady Stuart de Rothesay; Anne can't introduce Mariana to them (presumably because of her lowly "rank"), but
"Mariana anxious to see them all without being known. Took Watson and went agreeing that we were not to take any notice of each other - she was close to us s[ev]eral times. She told me afterwards the seeing me in that way made her feel queer and sick - I said it was queer enough to me but the fact was I neither cared nor thought about it" (13-Jul-1833).
Anne's last contact with Mariana before Anne leaves for the continent is cool, to say the least:
"pencil note from M- to she was better this morning & beg me to look for her pen which she had left - little note back to say I could not find it, and wish goodbye & say I should probably go to Italy - poor M-! when & how shall we meet again!" Then another hectic day
"out at 12 ¾... from 1:35 to 2:35 with Lady S de R- St. James's Square - advised me to go to Russia - I might do it very well - & might make an excursion from St. P[etersburgh] to the mountains (Urals)... from St. James's Square to Wimpole Street - V- at dinner - then a minute or 2 with Mrs Hall 16 Orchard Street - said I had just called to say goodbye - going tomorrow... then to Grosvenor Place - Lady S- & Miss Tate out - then called at Lemon's[?] hotel Park Lane or Park[?] Street - Mrs Hamilton Hamilton[sic] not at home - left my card - then back to Wimpole Street & sat 50 mins by V- lying on the sofa - set her to guess which way I should go - she said Italy and hardly believed me when I said to Russia. I said I wished Miss Tate would go with me - V said she was not quite the person in a manner that gave me the idea of it's being rather a mesalliance between Lady S and her" (16-Jul-1833).
To Dover
A lovely diary entry describing the mad rush to Dover, and finishing on an introspective note:
"Breakfast at 11 - settled all - thought the carriage never would be ready - off from Dover Street at 12:50 - ¼ hour at Hammersley's - got £20 in Bank of England [notes]... saw H[ammersley] himself - mentioning my having determined upon going Northwards, but going to friends at Copenhagen... then to Grosvenor Place - Miss Tate out - could not wait longer - Lady Stuart determined to see me - very Kind - said I had determined to go north I had taken Lady S de R's advice for I knew she had some good reason for giving it... Off from 21 Grosvenor Place at 1:40 - at Shooter's Hill at 2:55 - a landau & 4 just before me, & no horses - waited ¼ hour & took a pair of horses just come in as leaders to my London horses, & at Dartford in ¾ hour... Between D[artford] & Rochester passed Lord Granville in his light britzka & four, one gent with him going at a good rate - I envied him his light carriage - at Canterbury at 10 ¼ - got out with the intention of staying all night, but took fright at the little poky[sic] sitting room downstairs, & thinking I should never be in time for the packet at 9 a.m. in the morning, ordered only horses, & got to Wright's hotel Dover at 1 - tea & ham - went to my room at 2 - reflective - did not read but very fairly happy today and castle-building about writing, publishing and making my book pay my expenses" (17-Jul-1833).
This is the end of day 54 in GJ, and nearly the end of the episode. The next day Anne finally leaves England:
"Ready in an hour... breakfast at 8 ¾.. embarked on board the Ferret steamer, 140 tons, fine fast vessel, Captain Hamilton - off at 10:20 - landed at Calais at 12:55 - very fine passage - nobody sick - I sat or rather lay in my carriage ½ asleep all the way - smooth water yet a fine cool pleasant air blowing through all the open windows" (18-Jul-1833).